I Love You, Dad

Heloow fellas :) have you enjoyed your day? I wish you have :D

Mmm… well, see, I’m just an ordinary girl who has an ordinary family in an ordinary life. My life is so simple. I just go to school, come back home, playing with my sisters, watching television, chit chat with my father and mother. Until I’m like this now. I almost 19^th on October.

When I was child, I never think what I will be in the future; all I know is eating and playing. Sometimes I study. I remembered when I was in 4^th or 5^th grade in elementary school; my mother was teaching me mathematic. I was so bad in it. I hate it. I think I’m not having any talent on it. My mother was teaching me algebra, but I couldn’t count it, then my mother was angry with me. I was really scare, I almost cry, but I scared if I cry, my mother would be more angry with me. On next day, my father was teaching me to read the clock. But, still I couldn’t read it. I didn’t know what’s wrong with me? Why did I couldn’t count?? Then my father was angry with me too, he was angry because I couldn’t read the clock although he has taught it to me repeatedly. All I can do is crying, what else?

After all of it happened to me, I was being so quite. I tried to learn mathematic so hard. But I couldn’t get any good score on it. If I get a bad score, I will rip the paper in my book directly, so my parents won’t know about it. One day, my father saw my book. He saw a little rip of the paper, and then he asked me. I couldn’t lie to my father, so I tell him the truth. I’m sure, you can guess what will happen.. Yes, he was angry. He grumbled on me. I bowed. I didn’t brave enough to see his eyes.

I do bad in mathematic. I use all the way to make it better but it doesn’t work at all. I still hate it.

My friends said that I just have to change my mind. Set my mind and practice a lot. Yeah, that so easy for you to say. In fact, I still couldn’t solve any mathematic problem, even it is a simple one. Oh I think, perhaps I still can counting it J

With my all weaknesses, I could pass my junior and senior high school well. Now, I m studying English in Politeknik Negeri Bandung. At first, my father complained about it. Why did I choose English? Actually I’m from SMK and my major is accounting. My father wanted me to choose an engineer. Honestly, I couldn’t choose it. I didn’t even have any confidence to look at it. But my father didn’t understand. He always regret me, why I chose English. Why I chose English is because I like it. I never tired to open dictionary over and over. I do it with fun. Although I never get a high score, but at least I’m happy doing this. I wish my father also understand about that.

Actually, from my deep heart, I really want to make my parent proud of me. Especially my father. I know I always make him disappointed. I never be what he wants. I always make him angry. But I really love him. I love him very much. He is a great father that I ever have. He has given everything for his family. His love, his time, his energy, his attention, his responsibility. Everything to make his family happy.

I know my father wants me the best. He has thought and planned everything the best for me. But I ruined it. I am extremely sorry, Dad. I just don’t want to do a things that I don’t like. Perhaps, I don’t try to understand your feeling, Dad. I don’t know that all the things I do is hurting you. My words is sometimes make you sad. I just don’t find any ways to explain that to you, Dad.

One day.. When you were sitting in front of the house in the beautiful afternoon, you called me. You asked me to sit with you. You told that I’m your first daughter; I have to understand our conditions. I have to think maturely. Then he asked me to see my sisters and brothers, they are still child and he is getting old. He doesn’t sure if he could pay of their life cost in his age now. He really relies on me. He hopes if I could be study well in college, get the job, earn a living for my family life, got married and have a beautiful and big family. That’s all.

I wanted to cry, but I hold it. I think all of his words and he is right. I just want to be a devoted daughter.

I want to do everything so his wish on me can be come true.

As the other parents, my father always gives me a guidance to face my life, because when I’m studying in college, I will live in a boarding house. Alone. I have to be able to take care of myself. I always remember it, Dad. Especially when you told me that I don’t need to have any relationship with a boy for now. I tried to do that.

All I do is for making you proud of me, Dad. Im sorry if it not makes you satisfied. You also have to know that your daughter is also having the abilities and the weaknesses. You have to accept it. I love you, Dad. I always love you.

I through my life with everything I have. I cherish all the time with people who loving me and I cherish all I have. I thanked to Allah, because Allah has given me so many angels in my life.:)